My friend told me to practice every morning, writing down 3 things I was grateful for from the previous day. she said that it helps to have a positive day ahead. I was cynical as always, but I gave it a shot, for two weeks and I have to say, it didn’t help at all.
Dear future Lourdes,
I am not feeling so good in my heart right now, my brain is filled with insecurities and negative thoughts, and I hate my body. I am sad constantly and when I’m not, I am bored! But if you’re reading this, it means that you made it through despite everything. Yay.
I hope you’re happy right now, and that you love yourself a lil better. I hope something exciting is happening in your life right now and that you are clear headed about where you’re headed.
Are you dating? Have you found your love? I know the probability of that is too low but a girl can dream, right! Have you made your Dad proud yet? Did you buy your dream house and Did you take Mom and Dad on a family vacation that you promised yourself? Is Nooreen still your Best Friend? Did she find her happiness? Are Lallus gang still in contact with you? I’m sure you still love your cousins, all four of those shits, how many of y’all have kids right now? I hope y’all are still having those Dinner parties, laughing your asses off over the inside jokes and games.
I just hope you are happy, healthy, rich and in love.
Yours truly,
Past Lourdes.
Lourdes Sheejo 